Carl Ellis November 1928 - Diary - Revision history

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 And Meagan gave me a whole pile of letters to deliver at Gathering.  Winder what they are?<br><br>
 '''''Monday, 12 November 1928; On a Train --''''''<br><br>
 '''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>
 ''"They have left, finally.  All of them off to their respective homes, or to wherever they feel needed.  A blessed relief to see them all, and too, a blessed relief to see them gone.... Perhaps, despite my good intentions, I shall be up until dawning again.  'Tis always the way, after a Gathering.  So much to set down before the memories fade...."<br><br>''From the diary of Pierre Farquell''

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	So I watch. And I learn. I will try hard to learn the Path to Smart; but it is so very long, so very complex, that I despair of ever finishing. My progress seems so very slow; the watchmarks so hard to find; then one must hold it all in the mind at once, building it piece by piece like a crystal puzzle.<br>		So I watch. And I learn. I will try hard to learn the Path to Smart; but it is so very long, so very complex, that I despair of ever finishing. My progress seems so very slow; the watchmarks so hard to find; then one must hold it all in the mind at once, building it piece by piece like a crystal puzzle.<br>
	I persevere.<br>		I persevere.<br>
	(Huh! ~~Jullian~~ just got stuck by a pin or something.)<br><br>		(Huh! Julian just got stuck by a pin or something.)<br><br>
	Dinner, tonight, with Meagan. Then a late night meet with King. I want to go over ''my'' version of the treaty, pick points apart, get objections, and further ideas. Tomorrow, I meet his protege, go over plans for the wedding. How silly I feel, making such a fuss! Really, it galls.<br><br>		Dinner, tonight, with Meagan. Then a late night meet with King. I want to go over ''my'' version of the treaty, pick points apart, get objections, and further ideas. Tomorrow, I meet his protege, go over plans for the wedding. How silly I feel, making such a fuss! Really, it galls.<br><br>
	'''''Thursday, 8 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>		'''''Thursday, 8 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>
	Met with Daphne today. Not my cup of tea at all ... and I suspect the opinion was mutual. Hard, mannish, aggressive, used to getting her way. Admirable enough in the industry, I suppose, but she cannot have many friends. She dismissed Julian without a thought. We discussed the reception, the options, the contingencies. No real surprises. It ~~willbe~~ fun to see what she is like at the wedding -- out of her element indeed! -- but for now I am nothing but an intelligently docile client.<br><br>		Met with Daphne today. Not my cup of tea at all ... and I suspect the opinion was mutual. Hard, mannish, aggressive, used to getting her way. Admirable enough in the industry, I suppose, but she cannot have many friends. She dismissed Julian without a thought. We discussed the reception, the options, the contingencies. No real surprises. It will be fun to see what she is like at the wedding -- out of her element indeed! -- but for now I am nothing but an intelligently docile client.<br><br>
	More zoo today, while Julian is shoe-shopping.<br><br>		More zoo today, while Julian is shoe-shopping.<br><br>
	'''''Saturday, 10 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>		'''''Saturday, 10 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>
			The Day Before. Meagan is more frantic by the hour -- she calls, she cannot think of what to say, she checks and double-checks things she's checked before -- amazing! Gone the serene priestess: Pouf! Enter one very crazed woman.<br><br>
			It makes me smile. I wonder how ''he'' is doing? <br><br>
			Tonight is the rehearsal, then the dinner. We have not seen much of Edward this week, he is off doing Chandler-things. They are both excited, it seems to me; I only hope they stay happy. So many questions! But far too late to turn aside.<br><br>
			In an hour or so, Julian's wardrobe will arrive. Tailrs work ''fast'' in Chicago! If you have money. I cannot wait to have her model it for me.<br><br>
			Yesterday was Our Day Together. We escaped from all of them and zipped about on our own. Such a pity it was winter. The beach was cold; the park was cold. We had lunch in a sunny rooftop glasshouse restaurant a few blocks from here and spent the afternoon -- where else? -- at the Zoo.<br><br>
			Julian had never been to a zoo before, and Brookfield is a splendid one. Aside from the weather, the animals all live in spacious comfort, with few walls and no bars. As always, I went first to the Monkey House, to greet my friends there; the peanut man nodded hello, he's seen me before. I love to watch the Gibbons and Siamangs leap about the way they do -- Julian was open-mouthed! It is such fun to astonish her.<br><br>
			One of the gorillas threw some of his lunch at us, which amused the crowd but rather took her aback. She kept asking why us, what was wrong with us; of course I couldn't say.<br><br>
			Later, at the Reptile House, we watched the crocs feed. Brr! Messy. She was not pleased at all... cowered in my arms in disgust. Hah! I think she merely wanted to steal a snuggle.<br><br>
			I thought she would like the big cats, but they were lazy and uncooperative, sleeping in dim recesses of their hutches where we could barely make them out. The elephants were popular though, and so especially were the giraffes. I believe they were the beast of the day, she went on and on about how strange and different they were.<br>
			It was a lovely afternoon.<br><br>
			We talked a bit about the future as well. I have been thinking a lot about my family, and how I am a danger to them now. It hurts to think so, but I am resolved not to endanger them, so I must go away, cut myself off for a long time, perhaps years. How could I explain? And Julian -- even if they understood our marriage -- how to explain the obvious fact that ''she does not age''? Amar's words come back to me. So many things pass....<br><br>
			I want them to understand.<br>
			I want them to know Julian, to accept her.<br>
			She is heartbroken that she may not see them again.<br><br>
			Eh! The Time may be a blessing in disguise! There will be no room for lies, nor need, when it is over.<br><br>
			'''''Sunday, 11 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>
			Such a day! Enough to fill up the rest of he book with, I think; but it is late and I am tired. So, just a bit to check in, and I shall fill the details tomorrow. The thing is done, the happy couple are on their way amidst sprawling splendor.<br><br>
			And Meagan gave me a whole pile of letters to deliver at Gathering. Winder what they are?<br><br>
	'''''Monday, 12 November 1928; On a Train --''''''<br><br>		'''''Monday, 12 November 1928; On a Train --''''''<br><br>
	'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>		'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>

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 This is going to drive me crazy.<br><br>
 '''''Monday, 5 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
 '''''Wednesday, 7 November 1928; Chicago! --''''''<br><br>
 '''''Thursday, 8 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>
 '''''Saturday, 10 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>
 '''''Monday, 12 November 1928; On a Train --''''''<br><br>

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 Useful skill, climbing.  Good not to lose track of it.<br><br>
 '''''Sunday, 4 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
 '''''Monday, 5 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
 '''''Wednesday, 7 November 1928; Chicago! --''''''<br><br>

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	Let the world wait. I am content here.<br><br>		Let the world wait. I am content here.<br><br>
	'''''Saturday, 3 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>		'''''Saturday, 3 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
			Zigfried has been teaching me Arabic. Just a few words and phrases, really -- I should have to learn the writing, were I to wish to pick it up very fast, and that is beyond me just now. But numbers, and Yes, No, Please, Thank You, Hello, Goodbye, that sort of thing. I do not know how they conjugate the verbs, if indeed they do so at all, buut I do not want to burden Zigfried, we are just fooling around with it really.<br><br>
			The crew are delighted (and doubtless quite amused) by my fumbling attempts; on occasion I receive a torrent of lalala in reply; and in my rush not to disillusion them I fear my hastily-blurted phrase for "I do not understand Arabic" must come out sounding like "I eat only purple elephants" or some such thing! Languages are fun.<br><br>
			Should I? Should I not? I want to commune with ''Amun''; I have not worked up the nerve. Time is short; should I?<br><br>
			''Later on, same day -- ''<br><br>
			One of the crew lads has offered to teach Julian to climb into the rigging. "May I, Carl?" Wel, I saw no harm in it, she so excited and he so earnest; I told her to be careful and wear trousers, and we all went out to watch. They had fun; she even got about twenty feet up the mast, and then the ship heeled a bit, Julian looked DOWN, she saw that she really was quite high up over an unstable platform -- and came down again. I took a hand at it myself -- it was fun, but I didn't really want to go all the way up there today, so... that was the end of that.<br><br>
			Useful skill, climbing. Good not to lose track of it.<br><br>
	'''''Sunday, 4 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>		'''''Sunday, 4 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
	'''''Monday, 5 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>		'''''Monday, 5 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
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	'''''Monday, 12 November 1928; On a Train --''''''<br><br>		'''''Monday, 12 November 1928; On a Train --''''''<br><br>
	'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>		'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>


	''"They have left, finally. All of them off to their respective homes, or to wherever they feel needed. A blessed relief to see them all, and too, a blessed relief to see them gone.... Perhaps, despite my good intentions, I shall be up until dawning again. 'Tis always the way, after a Gathering. So much to set down before the memories fade...."<br><br>''From the diary of Pierre Farquell''		''"They have left, finally. All of them off to their respective homes, or to wherever they feel needed. A blessed relief to see them all, and too, a blessed relief to see them gone.... Perhaps, despite my good intentions, I shall be up until dawning again. 'Tis always the way, after a Gathering. So much to set down before the memories fade...."<br><br>''From the diary of Pierre Farquell''

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 '''''Thursday, 1 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
 '''''Saturday, 3 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
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			'''''Thursday, 1 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
			'''''Saturday, 3 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
			'''''Sunday, 4 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
			'''''Monday, 5 November 1928; At Sea --''''''<br><br>
			'''''Wednesday, 7 November 1928; Chicago! --''''''<br><br>
			'''''Thursday, 8 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>
			'''''Saturday, 10 November 1928; Chicago --''''''<br><br>
			'''''Monday, 12 November 1928; On a Train --''''''<br><br>
	'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>		'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>

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			'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>


	''"They have left, finally. All of them off to their respective homes, or to wherever they feel needed. A blessed relief to see them all, and too, a blessed relief to see them gone.... Perhaps, despite my good intentions, I shall be up until dawning again. 'Tis always the way, after a Gathering. So much to set down before the memories fade...."<br><br>''From the diary of Pierre Farquell''		''"They have left, finally. All of them off to their respective homes, or to wherever they feel needed. A blessed relief to see them all, and too, a blessed relief to see them gone.... Perhaps, despite my good intentions, I shall be up until dawning again. 'Tis always the way, after a Gathering. So much to set down before the memories fade...."<br><br>''From the diary of Pierre Farquell''

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	~~'''''18 November 1928; Arkham, 3:15 AM --''''''<br><br>~~

	His words; more than seventy-five years gone, and still so clear. They mean much more now.<br><br>		His words; more than seventy-five years gone, and still so clear. They mean much more now.<br><br>

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	- Tony squiring Alexandria around, as belligerently proud and nervous as I've seen him, obviously possessive and doting;		- Tony squiring Alexandria around, as belligerently proud and nervous as I've seen him, obviously possessive and doting;

	- Theo's words, after the vote: "Please, Carl! I believe that what you do is sometimes necessary -- but be careful what you choose to do!"		- Theo's words, after the vote: "Please, Carl! I believe that what you do is sometimes necessary -- but be careful what you choose to do!"
	- Alex's words, about the ~~NSs~~: "Can they be helped? Can they be saved? I have fought all my life to drive them out -- but if they can be cured, I HAVE TO TRY!"
			- Alex's words, about the Nightsiders: "Can they be helped? Can they be saved? I have fought all my life to drive them out -- but if they can be cured, I HAVE TO TRY!"

	- Emerson's appearance: Haggard, thin, unhealthy from lack of sleep ... but with a fierce excitement in his eyes that makes me uneasy.		- Emerson's appearance: Haggard, thin, unhealthy from lack of sleep ... but with a fierce excitement in his eyes that makes me uneasy.

	- Lazlo; and Tony; and Alex: Promise us, Carl: Never tell Meagan anything about us!		- Lazlo; and Tony; and Alex: Promise us, Carl: Never tell Meagan anything about us!

	- Julian, glowing glorious gold at dinner, so proud and happy for her man I could burst with it;		- Julian, glowing glorious gold at dinner, so proud and happy for her man I could burst with it;
	- Hollyfeldt's stunned disbelief, when at last he was introduced to Alexandria.<br><br>
			- Hollyfeldt's stunned disbelief, when at last he was introduced to Alexandria Durrell.<br><br>

	Oh, so rich, so rich! The jokes, the laughter; the suggestions to Clay that he Cross soon, or else he'll die first! Such a marvelous couple of days!<br><br>		Oh, so rich, so rich! The jokes, the laughter; the suggestions to Clay that he Cross soon, or else he'll die first! Such a marvelous couple of days!<br><br>
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	In silence, my heart sings.<br><br>		In silence, my heart sings.<br><br>

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	''Monday, 19 November 1928; Arkham --'''''<br><br>		'''''Monday, 19 November 1928; Arkham --'''''<br><br>

	Once we begin, we move quickly. A number of tasks assigned, though most do not start up until after the New Year. Sunday was devoted to interviews and long private talks with various folk. Maddy arrived at last! Only too late for all the fun. She looks splendid, and is on her way to the Estate for private study.<br><br>		Once we begin, we move quickly. A number of tasks assigned, though most do not start up until after the New Year. Sunday was devoted to interviews and long private talks with various folk. Maddy arrived at last! Only too late for all the fun. She looks splendid, and is on her way to the Estate for private study.<br><br>

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	- What of his ongoing investigations?		- What of his ongoing investigations?

	- What of his experiments?		- What of his experiments?

	- What of Pembroke, whom he is guiding?		- What of Pembroke, whom he is guiding?

	- What of the Children who are supposed to be in his care?		- What of the Children who are supposed to be in his care?
	- What, dear God, of Mrs. Williams? He no longer seems to care. It is not that he has forgotten about her, no; but he dismisses her from conversation! Where, now, is the intensely caring fellow who has asked her to marry him? Who has been her devoted friend for years, and her protector? Where is the man who vowed, ashen-faced, that whomsoever so much as touched her would be destroyed at his hands? He has heard from her, as I have, and he dismisses her worries offhandedly, between telling me of a wild gin party he is planning and reassuring me that "he knows what he is doing."<br><br>
			- What, dear God, of Mrs. Hannelore Williams? He no longer seems to care. It is not that he has forgotten about her, no; but he dismisses her from conversation! Where, now, is the intensely caring fellow who has asked her to marry him? Who has been her devoted friend for years, and her protector? Where is the man who vowed, ashen-faced, that whomsoever so much as touched her would be destroyed at his hands? He has heard from her, as I have, and he dismisses her worries offhandedly, between telling me of a wild gin party he is planning and reassuring me that "he knows what he is doing."<br><br>

	Sure, he knows. Hah.<br><br>		Sure, he knows. Hah.<br><br>
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	Still, the shot has been fired. It changes everything, in small ways. It is one more thing to point to -- one more bit of evidence.<br><br>		Still, the shot has been fired. It changes everything, in small ways. It is one more thing to point to -- one more bit of evidence.<br><br>

	And I must confess this: that te first thing I thought of, when the shock had settled and the icy chill ceased numbing my brain, was: "Thank God! Thank God we got to tell our story first. They would never believe us now."<br><br>		And I must confess this: that the first thing I thought of, when the shock had settled and the icy chill ceased numbing my brain, was: "Thank God! Thank God we got to tell our story first. They would never believe us now."<br><br>

	Those poor people. What a loss And they will never know why, nor believe it if they were told. The victims of a war that has now truly begun: the Enemy has started killing civilians.<br><br>		Those poor people. What a loss And they will never know why, nor believe it if they were told. The victims of a war that has now truly begun: the Enemy has started killing civilians.<br><br>
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	Another day or two and we will be home. Home. It seems like forever.<br><br>		Another day or two and we will be home. Home. It seems like forever.<br><br>

	We passed through Montana yesterday, ~~Bigtimber~~ some time mid-morning. Less than fifty miles from his house; one could not see the peak from the train. I wonder how he is? Wrote a letter, in a passing mood of extravagance; he should have it by the time we are home.<br><br>		We passed through Montana yesterday, Big Timber some time mid-morning. Less than fifty miles from his house; one could not see the peak from the train. I wonder how he is? Wrote a letter, in a passing mood of extravagance; he should have it by the time we are home.<br><br>

	I have been poor company these past few days. So many things have happened! From Gathering to the Reservoir, Washington to the news of the Plague, all in a week's time. It has affected me. Up and down, elation to despair. More than anything else, I have been impressed by an enormous sense of BURDEN.<br><br>		I have been poor company these past few days. So many things have happened! From Gathering to the Reservoir, Washington to the news of the Plague, all in a week's time. It has affected me. Up and down, elation to despair. More than anything else, I have been impressed by an enormous sense of BURDEN.<br><br>
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	Now I can feel the relaxation coming over me. Flicker-flicker; and glimpses of new things too, plots and plans for the new year.<br><br>		Now I can feel the relaxation coming over me. Flicker-flicker; and glimpses of new things too, plots and plans for the new year.<br><br>
	- Will I hear from New Mexico?		- Will I hear from New Mexico?

	- Will King accept the latest Treaty?		- Will King accept the latest Treaty?

	- Will Theo's friends find the plot, and cripple it without being destroyed?		- Will Theo's friends find the plot, and cripple it without being destroyed?

	- Will WE?		- Will WE?

	- Will Gordon be able to help us?		- Will Gordon be able to help us?

	- Will the Old Guard have success in Turkey, or Byron and the rest in Ithaca?<br><br>		- Will the Old Guard have success in Turkey, or Byron and the rest in Ithaca?<br><br>