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Taimdala at 07:51, 27 December 2010

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	'''Go back to''' '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| '''Skip to''' '''''[[A Midnight Clear]]'''''.<br>		'''Go back to''' '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| '''Skip to''' '''''[[A Midnight Clear]]'''''.<br>
	'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Journal entry and RP log]]'''''<br>		'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Rina's Journal entry and RP log]]'''''<br>
	'''Go to ''[[Rina's Russian Glossary]]'''''<br>		'''Go to ''[[Rina's Russian Glossary]]'''''<br>
	'''Go to''' [[Marina Kseniya Sebastien \| '''Rina's Crew Page''']] <br>		'''Go to''' [[Marina Kseniya Sebastien \| '''Rina's Crew Page''']] <br>
	'''Go to [[EPISODES]]''' or '''[[MTimeline#2511-2518\|TIMELINE]]'''		'''Go to [[EPISODES]]''' or '''[[MTimeline#2511-2518\|TIMELINE]]'''

Taimdala at 02:39, 17 December 2010

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	<span style="color:#800000">'''''Since this season turned out to be RP heavy, it's only fair to include the link to everyone's efforts.'''''</span><br>		<span style="color:#800000">'''''Since this season turned out to be RP heavy, it's only fair to include the link to everyone's efforts.'''''</span><br>
	~~Go back to '''''[[Mutineers_Timeline,_Season_Three \| Timeline, Season Three ]]'''''<br>~~
	~~Go back to '''''[[Mutineers Timeline\|TIMELINE]]'''''<br><br>~~

	'''Go back to''' '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| '''Skip to''' '''''[[A Midnight Clear]]'''''.<br>		'''Go back to''' '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| '''Skip to''' '''''[[A Midnight Clear]]'''''.<br>
	'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - ~~Season One]]'''''<br>~~		'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Journal entry and RP log]]'''''<br>
	~~'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season Two~~]]'''''<br>		'''Go to ''[[Rina's Russian Glossary]]'''''<br>
	'''Go to ''[[~~Peripatetica - Season Three]]'''''<br>~~
	~~'''Go to ''[[Miscellanea -~~ Rina's ~~RP entries~~]]'''''<br>
	'''Go to''' [[Marina Kseniya Sebastien \| '''Rina's Crew Page''']] <br>		'''Go to''' [[Marina Kseniya Sebastien \| '''Rina's Crew Page''']] <br>
	'''Go to [[EPISODES]]''' or '''[[MTimeline#2511-2518\|TIMELINE]]'''		'''Go to [[EPISODES]]''' or '''[[MTimeline#2511-2518\|TIMELINE]]'''

Taimdala at 20:12, 28 May 2010

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			<span style="color:#800000">'''''Since this season turned out to be RP heavy, it's only fair to include the link to everyone's efforts.'''''</span><br>
			Go back to '''''[[Mutineers_Timeline,_Season_Three \| Timeline, Season Three ]]'''''<br>
			Go back to '''''[[Mutineers Timeline\|TIMELINE]]'''''<br><br>

			'''Go back to''' '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| '''Skip to''' '''''[[A Midnight Clear]]'''''.<br>
	Go back to '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| Skip to '''''[[A Midnight Clear]]'''''.<br>
	'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season One]]'''''<br>		'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season One]]'''''<br>
	'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season Two]]'''''<br>		'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season Two]]'''''<br>

Taimdala at 05:45, 14 April 2010

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	''You could stop sniveling and own up'', said a dry voice inside me. ''Don’t insult the man by keeping him in the dark. That’s how you got into this mess. Sit up''.		''You could stop sniveling and own up'', said a dry voice inside me. ''Don’t insult the man by keeping him in the dark. That’s how you got into this mess. Sit up''.

	I swallowed hard and turned around. Time to face the music.		I swallowed hard and turned around. ''Time to face the music''.

	“I’m sorry, Joshua,” I breathed. “I’m so very very sorry.”		“I’m sorry, Joshua,” I breathed. “I’m so very very sorry.”

Taimdala at 05:45, 14 April 2010

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	I felt his hands on me and I flinched. Self-loathing had me curling up into a tighter ball to avoid him, fear froze my tongue. It was that night on the Decatur all over again, amplified ten times over, and as I had then I didn’t know what to do with myself now.		I felt his hands on me and I flinched. Self-loathing had me curling up into a tighter ball to avoid him, fear froze my tongue. It was that night on the Decatur all over again, amplified ten times over, and as I had then I didn’t know what to do with myself now.

	You could stop sniveling and own up, said a dry voice inside me. Don’t insult the man by keeping him in the dark. That’s how you got into this mess. Sit up.		''You could stop sniveling and own up'', said a dry voice inside me. ''Don’t insult the man by keeping him in the dark. That’s how you got into this mess. Sit up''.

	I swallowed hard and turned around. Time to face the music.		I swallowed hard and turned around. Time to face the music.

Taimdala at 06:05, 6 April 2010

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	Go back to '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| Skip to '''''~~The Next Entry~~'''''.<br>		Go back to '''''[[Home For Christmas]]''''' \| Skip to '''''[[A Midnight Clear]]'''''.<br>
	'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season One]]'''''<br>		'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season One]]'''''<br>
	'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season Two]]'''''<br>		'''Go to ''[[Peripatetica - Season Two]]'''''<br>

Malificent at 20:33, 5 April 2010

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	'''Kuiper II class, Summer’s Gift'''<br>		'''Kuiper II class, Summer’s Gift'''<br>
	'''En Route to Ariel'''<br>		'''En Route to Ariel'''<br>
	''2230hrs, ship’s time'''<br>		'''2230hrs, ship’s time'''<br>


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	"I was just thinking that this wasn't the kind of bed rest Arden would prescribe. And what his reaction would be if we told him that we were thinking about him while we were sprawled together, arms intertwined..." He trailed off and wiped some sweat from his brow before it dripped into his eyes. It didn't seem quite so hysterically funny now. Perhaps one of those you had to be there in his head moments. Ah well.		"I was just thinking that this wasn't the kind of bed rest Arden would prescribe. And what his reaction would be if we told him that we were thinking about him while we were sprawled together, arms intertwined..." He trailed off and wiped some sweat from his brow before it dripped into his eyes. It didn't seem quite so hysterically funny now. Perhaps one of those you had to be there in his head moments. ''Ah well.''

	He hugged her a little tighter, enjoying her presence beside him. Seemed like a long time since they had been together, but then again the last couple of months felt like they had been years.		He hugged her a little tighter, enjoying her presence beside him. Seemed like a long time since they had been together, but then again the last couple of months felt like they had been years.
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	It took a minute for Joshua's brain to catch up with Rina's thought pattern.		It took a minute for Joshua's brain to catch up with Rina's thought pattern.

	Pick up? I just picked her up...does that count? Ok, wait, what?		''Pick up? I just picked her up...does that count? Ok, wait, what?''

	But eventually he realized she had completely shifted gears and was thinking about his reading abilities. "Well, I'm not actively reading you, so I'm not sure. I mean, I can guess from the atmosphere and situation and your body language what you're generally feeling. But that doesn't take me reading. I have to be focused on it to pick things up." Most of the time, he silently amended his statement. He hadn't been focused on Brian at the time, that's for sure.		But eventually he realized she had completely shifted gears and was thinking about his reading abilities. "Well, I'm not actively reading you, so I'm not sure. I mean, I can guess from the atmosphere and situation and your body language what you're generally feeling. But that doesn't take me reading. I have to be focused on it to pick things up." Most of the time, he silently amended his statement. He hadn't been focused on Brian at the time, that's for sure.
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	"Ai Yah Tien Ah! I was just feeling like a normal human being again, damn it." Joshua took a sip of the water bottle, the water both painful crossing his tongue and cool comfort down his throat. He looked over at her, standing nude against her desk, and despite the mental desire to maintain the anger, it flowed away, just leaving him shaking his head in amazement. "I wanted to stay furious, but your nudity disarmed me. I can't stay angry with that body staring me in the face. I just can't."		"''Ai Yah Tien Ah!'' I was just feeling like a normal human being again, damn it." Joshua took a sip of the water bottle, the water both painful crossing his tongue and cool comfort down his throat. He looked over at her, standing nude against her desk, and despite the mental desire to maintain the anger, it flowed away, just leaving him shaking his head in amazement. "I wanted to stay furious, but your nudity disarmed me. I can't stay angry with that body staring me in the face. I just can't."

	Looking away from her to gather his thoughts, he mentally rewound the last few minutes, getting back to the last question she had asked. "I shut the door in my head, Rina. That's how I kept your memories out."		Looking away from her to gather his thoughts, he mentally rewound the last few minutes, getting back to the last question she had asked. "I shut the door in my head, Rina. That's how I kept your memories out."
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	Now we're getting somewhere... The deck plates ground into my knees and shins and I knew getting up later would hurt, but I didn't care. The discomfort would keep me sharp, keep me from giving in to sentiment.		''Now we're getting somewhere...'' The deck plates ground into my knees and shins and I knew getting up later would hurt, but I didn't care. The discomfort would keep me sharp, keep me from giving in to sentiment.

	"So if you keep that door closed all the time, how did Brian get through?"		"So if you keep that door closed all the time, how did Brian get through?"
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	Rina's sudden sobbing caught Joshua completely by surprise. He sat there stunned for a few seconds, running the conversation over in his head.		Rina's sudden sobbing caught Joshua completely by surprise. He sat there stunned for a few seconds, running the conversation over in his head.

	Doors...visualization...mental construct...flomoxipan...asking a doctor...was the idea of asking Valerie really so hideous? There's no way she would cry over something like that.		''Doors...visualization...mental construct...flomoxipan...asking a doctor...was the idea of asking Valerie really so hideous?'' There's no way she would cry over something like that.

	He quickly realized the cause didn't matter - she did. He moved down to the floor on his knees, echoing the pose Rina had just been in. From there, he reached forward and hugged her. "Whatever it is, Rina, it will be okay, I promise." And Joshua patiently waited for her to tell him what had gone wrong.		He quickly realized the cause didn't matter - she did. He moved down to the floor on his knees, echoing the pose Rina had just been in. From there, he reached forward and hugged her. "Whatever it is, Rina, it will be okay, I promise." And Joshua patiently waited for her to tell him what had gone wrong.
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	The connection she must have made just a minute ago finally popped into Joshua's head. Shit. He felt so poorly equipped sometimes dealing with the emotional issues. If he was performing physical surgery, he could've learned what to do and not to do from Arden. Times like these, he wished Christian had been around longer to learn from. The skillset of a Companion would've been so helpful as he attempted to perform the equivalent of emotional surgery.		The connection she must have made just a minute ago finally popped into Joshua's head. Shit. He felt so poorly equipped sometimes dealing with the emotional issues. If he was performing physical surgery, he could've learned what to do and not to do from Arden. Times like these, he wished Christian had been around longer to learn from. The skillset of a Companion would've been so helpful as he attempted to perform the equivalent of emotional surgery.

	Think, Joshua! What did Rina need to hear first? And then after that, what he did he need to say to make sure she didn't destroy herself over this? He prayed to whatever gods might be watching and decided to entrust his faith in his love for her.		''Think, Joshua! What did Rina need to hear first?'' And then after that, what he did he need to say to make sure she didn't destroy herself over this? He prayed to whatever gods might be watching and decided to entrust his faith in his love for her.

	"I accept your apology for surprising the living crap out of me." He pulled his arms out from around her, placed both hands on her cheeks and moved her head so she was looking straight into his eyes. "But I do not accept any apology for trying to help me build my defenses."		"I accept your apology for surprising the living crap out of me." He pulled his arms out from around her, placed both hands on her cheeks and moved her head so she was looking straight into his eyes. "But I do not accept any apology for trying to help me build my defenses."
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	He removed his hands from her face and nodded at her. "Darn tootin', I'm right. I may not be right very often but I'm right on this one." He climbed up off his knees and pain shot down his legs. What was that he had mentally muttered at Rina about common sense? Suck it up, soldier.		He removed his hands from her face and nodded at her. "Darn tootin', I'm right. I may not be right very often but I'm right on this one." He climbed up off his knees and pain shot down his legs. What was that he had mentally muttered at Rina about common sense? ''Suck it up, soldier.''

	Joshua settled on the bunk beside her, a tight squeeze, but one they were familiar with. "Now," he continued, putting his hand on her shoulder, "we just need to set some ground rules about future lessons, right?"		Joshua settled on the bunk beside her, a tight squeeze, but one they were familiar with. "Now," he continued, putting his hand on her shoulder, "we just need to set some ground rules about future lessons, right?"
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	Good.		''Good.''

	Bringing the topic back around like nothing had happened did what he had hoped - kicked Rina back into gear and gave her something else to focus on. "While the 'attacks could come at any time' strategy is a solid one, it has some flaws." He moved his hand from the shoulder down to her back, lightly rubbing, trying to maintain some basic human contact while talking.		Bringing the topic back around like nothing had happened did what he had hoped - kicked Rina back into gear and gave her something else to focus on. "While the '''attacks could come at any time''' strategy is a solid one, it has some flaws." He moved his hand from the shoulder down to her back, lightly rubbing, trying to maintain some basic human contact while talking.

	"Mostly just it throws my mental health out of whack to be constantly on alert all the time. And if I'm mentally out of whack, I'm not learning much about how to keep that door shut. And selfishly? I don't want to give up what normalcy we have. I need it to stay sane when it gets crazy, as it seems to do a lot on this ship. But we could definitely involve Arden and do some testing with the flomoxipan, if we can afford to buy some extra." The idea of spending extra precious credits almost made Joshua not suggest the idea. But a few credits spent wisely might save trouble down the line, he thought.		"Mostly just it throws my mental health out of whack to be constantly on alert all the time. And if I'm mentally out of whack, I'm not learning much about how to keep that door shut. And selfishly? I don't want to give up what normalcy we have. I need it to stay sane when it gets crazy, as it seems to do a lot on this ship. But we could definitely involve Arden and do some testing with the flomoxipan, if we can afford to buy some extra." The idea of spending extra precious credits almost made Joshua not suggest the idea. But a few credits spent wisely might save trouble down the line, he thought.
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	When he saw her pull the extra doses of his drug out of her drawer, he winced as he bit his already wounded tongue in an attempt not to say something hurtful. Extra drugs meant she had bought some on the sly. Meant she didn't trust him to be able to manage his own drugs. Meant she thought of him as a child, at least about some things. How was he supposed to learn how to survive out in the real 'Verse if the crew thought of him as a big kid that needed to protect?		When he saw her pull the extra doses of his drug out of her drawer, he winced as he bit his already wounded tongue in an attempt not to say something hurtful. Extra drugs meant she had bought some on the sly. Meant she didn't trust him to be able to manage his own drugs. Meant she thought of him as a child, at least about some things. How was he supposed to learn how to survive out in the real 'Verse if the crew thought of him as a big kid that needed to protect?

	Intent, Joshua, intent. He repeated to himself the exact words he had just told Rina. She meant well and was trying to look out for him and that was what was important.		''Intent, Joshua, intent.'' He repeated to himself the exact words he had just told Rina. She meant well and was trying to look out for him and that was what was important.

	He took a brief, calming breath and put all his training into making sure she didn't catch the bump in the road, keeping his voice pleasant and calm. "Sure, extra set of hands is good. And this means no spending ship credits for testing. How long have you had these?" He threw off the last question casually. He was hoping it was a while ago. Buying them recently and more importantly, hiding them meant she still wasn't quite ready to give him credit for being a 32 year old adult and not a 16 year old kid.		He took a brief, calming breath and put all his training into making sure she didn't catch the bump in the road, keeping his voice pleasant and calm. "Sure, extra set of hands is good. And this means no spending ship credits for testing. How long have you had these?" He threw off the last question casually. He was hoping it was a while ago. Buying them recently and more importantly, '''hiding''' them meant she still wasn't quite ready to give him credit for being a 32 year old adult and not a 16 year old kid.

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Malificent at 20:24, 5 April 2010

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	Joshua opened up the door in his mind and sent it seeking to Rina, planning to grab her surface thoughts and no more. He had been expecting something pleasant, especially considering what had just happened in the bed they were sitting on. So when the flashes of anger, the brief images of a man in uniform, and the pain, oh god the pain hit him, he was completely blindsided. He started to scream and bit his tongue to keep himself from disturbing the entire crew, filling his mouth with the coppery taste of blood. He whimpered in pain briefly before shutting the door to his mind again as he slumped back against the wall, trying to get his bearings.		Joshua opened up the door in his mind and sent it seeking to Rina, planning to grab her surface thoughts and no more. He had been expecting something pleasant, especially considering what had just happened in the bed they were sitting on. So when the flashes of anger, the brief images of a man in uniform, and the pain, oh god the pain hit him, he was completely blindsided. He started to scream and bit his tongue to keep himself from disturbing the entire crew, filling his mouth with the coppery taste of blood. He whimpered in pain briefly before shutting the door to his mind again as he slumped back against the wall, trying to get his bearings.

	His head hurt now, a throbbing that matched the throbbing pain from his tongue and he couldn't find any words to ask Rina what the hell that was all about. Just breathe, he thought, just breathe. Think about calming routines. And he started to mentally walk himself through katate-dori ikkyo omote. Forcing himself to step through the technique helped him relax and his accelerated, almost gasping breathing slowly approached normal.		His head hurt now, a throbbing that matched the throbbing pain from his tongue and he couldn't find any words to ask Rina what the hell that was all about. Just breathe, he thought, just breathe. Think about calming routines. And he started to mentally walk himself through ''katate-dori ikkyo omote''. Forcing himself to step through the technique helped him relax and his accelerated, almost gasping breathing slowly approached normal.

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	"First, let me say," and Joshua slowly lifted his head to look her straight in those beautiful brown eyes, "what....the...hell?" His tongue felt swollen...no, probably was swollen and the words didn't sound quite right to his ears.		"First, let me say," and Joshua slowly lifted his head to look her straight in those beautiful brown eyes, "'''what'''....'''the'''...'''hell'''?" His tongue felt swollen...no, probably was swollen and the words didn't sound quite right to his ears.

	He put his finger in his mouth and blood was dropping off it when he removed it. "Could I also ask for a towel or something so I can spit this blood out?" He shook his head. He saw where she was going with her questioning, but did she really need to do that? He was on board! No convincing necessary that he needed to learn some defenses. Certainly not this kind of convincing.		He put his finger in his mouth and blood was dropping off it when he removed it. "Could I also ask for a towel or something so I can spit this blood out?" He shook his head. He saw where she was going with her questioning, but did she really need to do that? He was on board! No convincing necessary that he needed to learn some defenses. Certainly not this kind of convincing.

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Taimdala at 07:51, 27 December 2010

Taimdala at 02:39, 17 December 2010

Taimdala at 20:12, 28 May 2010

Taimdala at 05:45, 14 April 2010

Taimdala at 05:45, 14 April 2010

Taimdala at 06:05, 6 April 2010

Malificent at 20:33, 5 April 2010

Malificent at 20:24, 5 April 2010

Taimdala: Created page with ' '''''And more criminality ensues. Thanks, Andy!''''' '''Tuesday, 24 Dec 2520''' '''Kuiper II class, Summer’s Gift''' '''En Rou…'

Taimdala: Created page with ' '''''And more criminality ensues. Thanks, Andy!''''' '''Tuesday, 24 Dec 2520'''
'''Kuiper II class, Summer’s Gift'''
'''En Rou…'