https://wiki.rpg.net/index.php?action=history&feed=atom&title=Truth_Is_A_Double-Edged_SwordTruth Is A Double-Edged Sword - Revision history2026-05-17T10:08:21ZRevision history for this page on the wikiMediaWiki 1.43.0https://wiki.rpg.net/index.php?title=Truth_Is_A_Double-Edged_Sword&diff=167692&oldid=prevTaimdala at 07:32, 27 December 20102010-12-27T07:32:47Z<p></p>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;And I returned to the cabin before I could embarrass us further. Crossing the threshold, I found Mike as I'd left him. He lowered the rifle when he saw it was me and I closed the door with a thump.<br></div></td><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;And I returned to the cabin before I could embarrass us further. Crossing the threshold, I found Mike as I'd left him. He lowered the rifle when he saw it was me and I closed the door with a thump.<br></div></td></tr>
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</table>Taimdalahttps://wiki.rpg.net/index.php?title=Truth_Is_A_Double-Edged_Sword&diff=128766&oldid=prevTaimdala at 02:04, 8 November 20092009-11-08T02:04:13Z<p></p>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;Mike was the only person I'd kill for without pity or remorse...and yet I'd been just as ruthless with his heart by turning him down. There was no sugarcoating it: I'd gutstabbed him and left him when he deserved better. Much better. Even if one allowed our mutual reluctance to bare ourselves to others, and that I had mistaken the truth for subterfuge and had played along accordingly, and that he had refrained from calling me on it, nothing could excuse what I'd done.<br> </div></td><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;Mike was the only person I'd kill for without pity or remorse...and yet I'd been just as ruthless with his heart by turning him down. There was no sugarcoating it: I'd gutstabbed him and left him when he deserved better. Much better. Even if one allowed our mutual reluctance to bare ourselves to others, and that I had mistaken the truth for subterfuge and had played along accordingly, and that he had refrained from calling me on it, nothing could excuse what I'd done.<br> </div></td></tr>
<tr><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="−"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">And against </del>all reasonable expectations, Mike <del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">was extending </del>the same offer again and knowing what I knew now , I dared not refuse it. If I spent the rest of my life making him happy I'd said yes, it would never satisfy my sense of justice for the wrong I'd dealt him. And fully aware that guilt was a poor foundation on which to build a life together, I knew I had to forgive myself as he'd apparently forgiven me but right now, I didn't have it in me. It was too much-too soon and my love for him wasn't enough to quell the self-recrimination that tore at me.<br></div></td><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="+"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">Against </ins>all reasonable expectations, Mike <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">had extended </ins>the same offer again and knowing what I knew now , I dared not refuse it. If I spent the rest of my life making him happy I'd said yes, it would never satisfy my sense of justice for the wrong I'd dealt him. And fully aware that guilt was a poor foundation on which to build a life together, I knew I had to forgive myself as he'd apparently forgiven me but right now, I didn't have it in me. It was too much-too soon and my love for him wasn't enough to quell the self-recrimination that tore at me.<br></div></td></tr>
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</table>Taimdalahttps://wiki.rpg.net/index.php?title=Truth_Is_A_Double-Edged_Sword&diff=128765&oldid=prevTaimdala at 02:02, 8 November 20092009-11-08T02:02:54Z<p></p>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;''The problem with changing for the better is that it hurts'', I'd said once to Christian. ''You're in love with the memory of Mike, rather than the reality of him'', Christian had once said to me. Both statements were true, but to what extent did they apply? As for being afraid of reality falling short of fantasy? I'd lived long enough with the fear of finding Mike dead and that I would fail to measure up to his standards should he prove to be alive, that I couldn’t entirely trust my grip on either fantasy or reality and see my way clear to make things right.<br></div></td><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;''The problem with changing for the better is that it hurts'', I'd said once to Christian. ''You're in love with the memory of Mike, rather than the reality of him'', Christian had once said to me. Both statements were true, but to what extent did they apply? As for being afraid of reality falling short of fantasy? I'd lived long enough with the fear of finding Mike dead and that I would fail to measure up to his standards should he prove to be alive, that I couldn’t entirely trust my grip on either fantasy or reality and see my way clear to make things right.<br></div></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="−"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;"Fear certainly figures into it somewhere," I temporized. "And it doesn't help that reality can be <del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">too </del>damned subjective."</div></td><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="+"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;"Fear certainly figures into it somewhere," I temporized. "And it doesn't help that reality can be <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">so </ins>damned subjective."</div></td></tr>
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</table>Taimdalahttps://wiki.rpg.net/index.php?title=Truth_Is_A_Double-Edged_Sword&diff=128764&oldid=prevTaimdala at 02:02, 8 November 20092009-11-08T02:02:19Z<p></p>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;''The problem with changing for the better is that it hurts'', I'd said once to Christian. ''You're in love with the memory of Mike, rather than the reality of him'', Christian had once said to me. Both statements were true, but to what extent did they apply? As for being afraid of reality falling short of fantasy? I'd lived long enough with the fear of finding Mike dead and that I would fail to measure up to his standards should he prove to be alive, that I couldn’t entirely trust my grip on either fantasy or reality and see my way clear to make things right.<br></div></td><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;''The problem with changing for the better is that it hurts'', I'd said once to Christian. ''You're in love with the memory of Mike, rather than the reality of him'', Christian had once said to me. Both statements were true, but to what extent did they apply? As for being afraid of reality falling short of fantasy? I'd lived long enough with the fear of finding Mike dead and that I would fail to measure up to his standards should he prove to be alive, that I couldn’t entirely trust my grip on either fantasy or reality and see my way clear to make things right.<br></div></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="−"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;"Fear certainly figures into it somewhere," I temporized. "And it doesn't help that reality <del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">is often </del>too damned subjective."</div></td><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="+"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;"Fear certainly figures into it somewhere," I temporized. "And it doesn't help that reality <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">can be </ins>too damned subjective."</div></td></tr>
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</table>Taimdalahttps://wiki.rpg.net/index.php?title=Truth_Is_A_Double-Edged_Sword&diff=128763&oldid=prevTaimdala at 02:01, 8 November 20092009-11-08T02:01:05Z<p></p>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="−"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #ffe49c; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;''The problem with changing for the better is that it hurts'', I'd said once to Christian. ''You're in love with the memory of Mike, rather than the reality of him'', Christian had once said to me. Both statements were true, but to what extent did they apply? As for being afraid of reality falling short of fantasy<del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">...</del>I'd <del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">gone too </del>long <del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">being afraid that reality would prove it was </del>Mike<del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">'s bones moldering away in that cabin than his living body, </del>and that I would fail to measure up to his standards should I <del style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">stay</del>.<br></div></td><td class="diff-marker" data-marker="+"></td><td style="color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #a3d3ff; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;''The problem with changing for the better is that it hurts'', I'd said once to Christian. ''You're in love with the memory of Mike, rather than the reality of him'', Christian had once said to me. Both statements were true, but to what extent did they apply? As for being afraid of reality falling short of fantasy<ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">? </ins>I'd <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">lived </ins>long <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">enough with the fear of finding </ins>Mike <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">dead </ins>and that I would fail to measure up to his standards should <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">he prove to be alive, that </ins>I <ins style="font-weight: bold; text-decoration: none;">couldn’t entirely trust my grip on either fantasy or reality and see my way clear to make things right</ins>.<br></div></td></tr>
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<tr><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;"Fear certainly figures into it somewhere," I temporized. "And it doesn't help that reality is often too damned subjective."</div></td><td class="diff-marker"></td><td style="background-color: #f8f9fa; color: #202122; font-size: 88%; border-style: solid; border-width: 1px 1px 1px 4px; border-radius: 0.33em; border-color: #eaecf0; vertical-align: top; white-space: pre-wrap;"><div>&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;"Fear certainly figures into it somewhere," I temporized. "And it doesn't help that reality is often too damned subjective."</div></td></tr>
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