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“Rings?” I echoed like an idiot. ''Of course, rings. Married people wear them, you know''. I nearly refused but caught myself in time as I wondered why ''no'' came easier than ''yes''. Why not wear one? The woman I used to be would have immediately answered: ''give the enemy no clue as to leverage, no sign as to alliances, leave no trail back to Mike''. But I wasn’t marrying Mike. I was marrying Joshua, a different man altogether, and that’s when it hit me. Mike no longer had a vote in my personal life. Marrying Joshua negated it. I could continue letting my old habits concerning Mike influence my decisions or I could do the sensible thing and leave him out of them. I just had to be willing to let him go. Whether he was alive or dead, it was immaterial. Mike wasn’t present and there was no hope he ever could be, therefore I couldn’t behave as if he were. To do so would cheat me and Joshua of our future going forward. So while I would have refused a ring had Mike been the man asking, I knew that I would accept a ring from Joshua. I also knew that it would have to be the last decision I made with Mike’s shadow on it.<br><br> | “Rings?” I echoed like an idiot. ''Of course, rings. Married people wear them, you know''. I nearly refused but caught myself in time as I wondered why ''no'' came easier than ''yes''. Why not wear one? The woman I used to be would have immediately answered: ''give the enemy no clue as to leverage, no sign as to alliances, leave no trail back to Mike''. But I wasn’t marrying Mike. I was marrying Joshua, a different man altogether, and that’s when it hit me. Mike no longer had a vote in my personal life. Marrying Joshua negated it. I could continue letting my old habits concerning Mike influence my decisions or I could do the sensible thing and leave him out of them. I just had to be willing to let him go. Whether he was alive or dead, it was immaterial. Mike wasn’t present and there was no hope he ever could be, therefore I couldn’t behave as if he were. To do so would cheat me and Joshua of our future going forward. So while I would have refused a ring had Mike been the man asking, I knew that I would accept a ring from Joshua. I also knew that it would have to be the last decision I made with Mike’s shadow on it.<br><br> | ||
− | + | Easier said than done … But I had to try.<br><br> | |
“Plain, I think. No stones. Nothing that could get caught in tools or machinery.” I turned in Joshua’s arms and looked him in the eye. “I’m sorry if you wanted something more elaborate, but I don’t dare risk it. Ever seen what a caught ring does to a finger?”<br><br> | “Plain, I think. No stones. Nothing that could get caught in tools or machinery.” I turned in Joshua’s arms and looked him in the eye. “I’m sorry if you wanted something more elaborate, but I don’t dare risk it. Ever seen what a caught ring does to a finger?”<br><br> |