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==10th Day of Resplendent Fire: Journals of Li Jin==

...over and over I swore to them it was an accident, but from the way they looked at me, I could tell they were all asking the same question in their hearts.  I know because I can't stop asking it of myself.  When I saw him lying on the groud before me while the rest of the mob scattered, the bleeding hole where my fist had been ''in his back'', I knew I had messed up.  Sure they were lead by a nemissary, but they didn't know it.  Sure they had started the fight, but they broke and ran as soon as I began using celestial martial arts.  One of them just didn't run fast enough.

Am I a monster now?  Over and over I think back to the moment before I struck, when I saw his face turn white with fear, when I saw him turning away.  I remember the first thought that came to my head, the thought that drove my fist through his spine.

"Who cares."

He's dead now, but I might as well be.  How can I face my masters once again, after what I have done, knowing what I have become?  How can I return to my father with pride?

I suppose it doesn't matter, in the end.  We'll all share Murinada's fate, eventually.  Then I won't have to answer for my crimes... at least not to the living.