Editing Midnight RPG - Chapter 44.744 (section)

=== Kyuad ===

Kyuad sits in silence for a moment, either waiting to hear if Eranon has anything more to add, or lost in a thought too gripping to interrupt.  '''"N<FONT size="1">ISSE IS GONE, AND </font>I <FONT size="1">WILL MISS HER COMPANY... SHE WAS A GOOD HELPER. </font>B<FONT size="1">UT WHAT RETURNED TO ME IS ONLY WHAT HAD BEEN INVESTED IN HER FROM THE BEGINNING. </font>A <FONT size="1">PORTION OF MY OWN SOUL, WROUGHT FROM THE HINTERLAND BETWEEN WHAT MAKES ME WHO </font>I <FONT size="1">AM, AND WHAT MAKES ME PART OF THE </font>O<FONT size="1">LD </font>L<FONT size="1">IBRARIAN. </font>S<FONT size="1">HE CARRIED WITH HER A BURDEN </font>I <FONT size="1">HAD HOPED TO DO WITHOUT, FOR IT CLOUDED MY JUDGEMENT TO THINK TOO MUCH ON THE COMFORT AND CARE OF OTHERS. </font>I <FONT size="1">AM NOT ENTIRELY SURE THIS WAS WISE, OR THAT SHE SHOULD BE REFORGED...</font>"'''  Kyuad's voice trails off for a moment, as if he were thinking on another topic.

'''"I <FONT size="1">ALSO FEEL A SENSE OF LOSS FOR </font>Z<FONT size="1">AL</font>'K<FONT size="1">AZZIR. </font>S<FONT size="1">OME OF WHICH, OF COURSE, IS BECAUSE WE LOST A FRIEND. </font>B<FONT size="1">UT ALSO </font>I <FONT size="1">MOURN WHAT WAS TAKEN FROM HIM BY </font>R<FONT size="1">AZ</font>'K<FONT size="1">ALVOSH. </font>I <FONT size="1">CANNOT HELP BUT WONDER HOW THINGS WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT WITHOUT THE SCHEMING OF </font>A<FONT size="1">RDERIN AND THE SUCCUBUS QUEEN. </font>T<FONT size="1">HOUGH SOMETIMES FOOLISH AND RECKLESS, HE DID NOT DESERVE THEIR CONNIVING WAYS. </font>I <FONT size="1">EVEN WONDER AT MY OWN MOTIVATIONS, IF </font>I <FONT size="1">WAS NOT ACTING ON MY FEELINGS ABOUT MY TEACHER'S KILLER - </font>I <FONT size="1">AM UNSURE IF </font>Z<FONT size="1">AL MIGHT HAVE ACTED WHOLLY ON HIS OWN THOUGHTS AS WELL, IN RETROSPECT.</font>'''

'''"I... <FONT size="1">FELT A pain AND LOSS WHEN THE </font>'E<FONT size="1">YE TOOK MY LIFE AND REFORGED MY FATE. </font>B<FONT size="1">UT THAT WAS A PALE LOSS COMPARED TO </font>C<FONT size="1">OLLUNE'S DEATH. </font>I<FONT size="1">T WAS SHE WHO RAISED ME, IN MANY WAYS. </font>M<FONT size="1">Y MOTHER WAS TAKEN BY ORCS, SO </font>I <FONT size="1">WAS TOLD, AND MY FATHER LOATHED THE BURDON OF RESPONSIBILITY. </font>I <FONT size="1">MAY HAVE LIVED IN HIS HOME, BUT ONLY AS A MERE TENANT. </font>C<FONT size="1">OLLUNE FILLED MY LIFE WITH WONDER, DANGER, LEARNING, PURPOSE, AND WISDOM. </font>W<FONT size="1">ITHOUT HER... WELL </font>I <FONT size="1">WOULD HAVE BEEN CONSUMED IN FIRE. </font>I <FONT size="1">WAS STILL-BORN, YOU SEE. </font>C<FONT size="1">OLLUNE WAS THERE, ASSISTING HER MASTER WHO SERVED AS THE REGION'S HEALER AND APOTHECARY. </font>S<FONT size="1">HE SAW SOMETHING IN THAT DEAD BABY, A SPARK OF HOPE, AND BEGGED TO </font>A<FONT size="1">RYTH THAT NIGHT FOR A BLESSING. </font>S<FONT size="1">HE SPENT THE FOLLOWING WEEK WITH ME, RISKING BEING CALLED A MAD WITCH, IN THE HOPES THAT THE BABY SHE HELD WAS NOT YET DEAD. </font>I <FONT size="1">TOOK MY FIRST BREATH A WEEK AFTER BEING BORN, IN THE SUNLIGHT, AS SHE HELD ME ABOVE HER HEAD, WEEPING, SURE THAT SHE HAD BEEN WRONG ALL ALONG.</font>'''

'''"A<FONT size="1">T FIRST THEY CALLED ME A </font>F<FONT size="1">ELL CHILD, AND </font>C<FONT size="1">OLLUNE NEVER TOLD ME HOW SHE CONVINCED THEM OTHERWISE. </font>S<FONT size="1">TILL, THE NAME </font>'F<FONT size="1">ELL </font>B<FONT size="1">OY</font>' <FONT size="1">STUCK WITH ME THROUGH MY CHILDHOOD, UNTIL THE OSTRACIZING FORCED MY FATHER TO MOVE US TO </font>H<FONT size="1">ILLBIRD. </font>C<FONT size="1">OLLUNE THEN WIDENED HER AREA OF SERVICE, NOW THE MASTER HEALER HERSELF, AND TOOK ME ON AS HER APPRENTICE. </font>S<FONT size="1">HE SOON CONFIDED IN ME HER GREAT SECRET, THAT SHE WAS IN FACT A WITCH OF SORTS, AND THAT SHE ACTED ON HER HATRED FOR THE </font>D<FONT size="1">ARK </font>O<FONT size="1">NE WHENEVER SHE COULD. </font>T<FONT size="1">HROUGH HER </font>I <FONT size="1">LEARNED TO READ AND STUDY FORBIDDEN LORE. </font>H<FONT size="1">AD </font>I <FONT size="1">KNOWN HOW KNOWLEDGE WOULD WARP HIM, </font>I <FONT size="1">NEVER WOULD HAVE SHARED MY STUDIES WITH </font>D<FONT size="1">IERRO.</font>"'''

Kyuad pauses for a moment again, and continues, '''"A<FONT size="1">ND NOW, WHAT OF ALL OF US</font>? H<FONT size="1">E HAS KILLED </font>C<FONT size="1">OLLUNE, ALLIED HIMSELF WITH EVIL FORCES, AND HERE </font>I <FONT size="1">SIT DECAYING, NOT WILLING TO LET LOOSE MY HOLD ON THIS WORLD OUT OF BLIND, FOOLISH </font>HOPE. E<FONT size="1">VEN NOW AS MY HEART ACHES WITH PAIN </font>I <FONT size="1">THOUGHT TO NEVER EXPERIENCE, MY VOICE DOES NOT CRACK, MY PULSE DOES NOT QUICKEN FROM ITS SLUMBER, MY EYES DO NOT WET, AND THIS CORPSE IN WHICH </font>I <FONT size="1">AM TRAPPED CONTINUES ITS SLOW DECAY, AS UNRESPONSIVE AS THE RUBBLE FALLEN FROM A RUINED WALL. </font>E<FONT size="1">VERYTHING IN ME IS BEGGING JUST TO CRY, TO WEEP FOR THE WOMAN WHO ASKED NO MORE OF ME THAN RESPECT, AND YET WHO GAVE HER LIFE FOR STRANGERS, AND ALL THIS BODY CAN DO IS MIMIC MY SHAPE... LIKE SOME STRAW MOCKERY WITH PAINTED EYES, </font>I <FONT size="1">HAVE A VOICE, A FORM, AND NOTHING BUT PAIN.</font>"'''