Journal Entry: Life is Short

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I thought I would want to be more careful and take less risks, to make sure I never ended up in that kind of position again.

That's what I thought I would feel...

When I was trapped under those incredibly heavy beams, for the first time in my life, I really thought I was going to die. There had been times where the thought had crossed my mind. But it never crossed my mind in a serious sort of way. Oh yeah, I might die. Sort of like saying, Oh I need to get some cans of corn for the pantry. It was a statement no different from any other and it didn't have that weight to it. I'd think it....but I wouldn't believe it. But as I laid there all alone, the flames crackling nearby, the heat of the flame and the weight of the beam almost overwhelming....I believed it.

I think I did okay. I was scared but I stayed calm. Said a lot of things to Rina, but they really all boiled down to letting her know how much I loved her. When she came back to get me out, I was infuriated that she was risking herself to save me....but I was secretly relieved as well. I'm not ready to die now...if ever.

So you would think I'd try and take less risks. But that's not the right lesson to be learned. The lesson is simple:

Life is short and can fall from you at any time - make the most of it'.

So I plan to make sure I live every moment going forward like it might be my last. Because you never know.

It might be.



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